La vita bella

My revised shit-to-do-until-it’s the weekend!

Work on my English Essay
Make sure I know what I’m doing for History of Rock and Roll
Vacuum the floors
Sell my textbooks
Go grocery shopping
- Milk
- Orange Juice
- Water bottles
- Crackers
Prepare for trip home next weekend
Call Susana about Chuseok, call mom about Chuseok, call Jae.
Double check syllabuses
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Read for History of Rock and Roll.***
Make sure to know all about chapter 5 + highlight notes + know my shit for participation / lecture

Study for Psych exam on 10/6
Study session for Psychology on 10/4

English Essay due Thursday midnight.***
Bring in Journal for chapter 3 and chapter 4 notes*** 

Statistics Assignment #4 due 10/3***
Clear and redo assignments #1-3 for a better grade
Dispute quiz grade***

Research for Criminal Justice
Prepare for Lit review
Find out notes for absence.***

I miss the young days.

I really miss climbing on the roofs behind the fence. Just lay there and watch the sun set over the crusty, older houses of Queens, NY.

I miss when playing in the snow made everything better. I could stay out there for 6 hours a day. Just walking around and sculpting my own world. Built some crazy forts, snowmen, and tunnels back in the day.

I miss the days I’d blow all my money to buy Pokemon booster packs, yo-yos, pop guns, and gameboys and games. How the feeling of getting a shiny rare card was totally worth the $4 you paid.

I miss how we’d carry band aids in our pockets every time we played basketball on the cracked, concrete courts knowing we’d trip and scratch a knee or fuck some shit up.

(Wow, and I’m so tired I just wrote “everytime”) -_-

I still remember my first day at FUMC. Finding out Steve Chu from my 3rd grade class went to this church. How my best friend Joseph brought me to this church and how we all knew each other.

Wow..

Reminds me of all the times I chilled with Joseph back in elementary school. We’d sleep over each other’s house every weekend, go to the junior high school playground to play handball and basketball. We’d stay up all night and play with Legos or Starcraft, throw water balloons out the window with his sister, and sneak junk food when your parents went to sleep. Miss you, no homo.

I miss going to Elim Presbyterian Church. All the piano lessons I had to take, my 10th birthday, the baseball games with the hyungs and old guys. The trips to the pizza store, the hours spent playing at the playground, throwing rocks into the neighbor’s pool. The Korean classes I had to take, the plays we had to perform, all the dares to go across the street past the scary looking bikers at Jackson Hole’s diner.

I miss playing Pokemon and carrying around a little bag for my Gameboy, Game Link, and gameboy games. I love playing the games, I miss Star Fox. Metroid Prime, Link, Mario and Luigi, Sonic the Hedgehog, Fire Emblem.

I miss when I would be on the internet or computer like 15 minutes a day and spending it doing something productive. It’s like the opposite now…

Sigh..ok

I went to class today, handed in my homework, filled out a new workout card for the month of October, and took notes.
Note to self: Homework being assigned next Monday & bring all notes in too

Did my laundry and folded it all. Also folded my entire drawer and put everything back to each drawer.

I re-did my wiring and cords because I just got an extension outlet from home. So did that and cleaned my desk. Wiped down the dust, threw out the trash and organized everything.

I just have to vacuum and move everything away from my windows because their putting in new ones in on Wednesday. I hope I can worry about these two things tomorrow though because I’m still busy today.

I have to shower and head to the 7800 lab to finish up some statistics labs and then go to class from 3:30-4:45. Drop off my stuff at home and head to the gym. Hopefully, I’ll only be at the gym from 5-7 and I can grab dinner with Chumez, shower, and work on my English paper for Tuesday’s appointment with my professor.

That’s it for today…

Tomorrow to-do-list
- Vacuum and move the furniture
- Hand in english paper and journal, attend conference
- Go to statistics, argue my quiz grade, clear assignments, and start assignment #4 because it’s long as shit!

Ok, I gotta get back to work. So busy… -cry- 

Ok, to help me collect my thoughts and keep track of what I need to do, my list!


Vacuum the floors
Move the furniture a foot away from the window for window replacement day
Finish up my labs for statistics
Sell my textbooks
Go grocery shopping
- Milk
- Orange Juice
- Water bottles
- Crackers
Prepare for trip home next weekend
Call Susana about Chuseok, call mom about Chuseok, call Jae.
Gym tomorrow with Chuma at 5PM (Be dressed for rock climbing)
Back + Forearm + Biceps + Legs + Calves
Double check syllabuses
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Read for History of Rock and Roll.
Make sure to know all about chapter 5 + highlight notes + know my shit for participation / lecture

Study for Psych exam on 10/6
Study session for Psychology on 10/4

English Essay due Tuesday at 3PM
Bring in Journal for chapter 3 and chapter 4 notes 

Fitness Homework in the morning

Statistics Assignment #4 due 10/3
Clear and redo assignments #1-3 for a better gradeDispute quiz grade and complete lab assignments

Research for Criminal JusticePrepare for Lit review.

I’m losing focus really bad.

I was sleeping early for classes, getting my shit done on time, on top of every little thing that was going on in class. Now I’m just forgetting about things, getting lazy and stagnant, and it’s starting to hurt my grades.

Gotta focus!!!!!

Tom Brady.

I love you.

I loved you when you won all those Super Bowl championships.

I loved you when you set the NFL record for touchdowns in a single season with 50.

I loved you when you set a NFL record with a perfect season.

I loved you when proved the doubters wrong and led the Pats to consecutive AFC division titles.

Now please, just cut your hair. Are you really gonna grow Justin Bieber hair because your wife is making you?! Your own teammates are laughing at you, even Justin Bieber laughed. Now cut your hair.

Mr Wesley Han had a nice tumblrcloud generated and his cloud consisted of the good stuff (Holy spirit, Jesus, love, etc). I generated my own cloud and the results were a bit boring. All I got was “people, shit, girls, drake, girls, wanna, smoke, people, school, girls, and smoke.” Awesome, heh.

I crushed my Research for Criminal Justice quiz, I think I got like a A+ at least which is bad news because I usually get crappy grades whenever I come out of an exam feeling good about it. I tried setting up a intramural football team with some of the guys and it’s in the works at the moment. Unfortunately, this great day, consisting of a lot of little things (I’ll write it later in the post) was ruined by a facebook message. Not just ruined, like a fat salmon mauled by  a hungry bear on top of a waterfall, just completely obliterated. Fucking psycho ex won’t leave me alone. Ranting about how I’m being an asshole for not responding to her messages and rejecting her calls on Skype. Oh my goddddddddddddddddddd, I hate the whole violence against women shit but I wanna hit this girl with a frying pan. I just don’t want anything to do with you anymore, just fuck off (x100000000000).

The day started off wonderfully too. I got like 8 hours of sleep and woke up on my own. Ate my dericious cereal, listened to some music as I got ready for class and stepped outside to a slightly chilly but windy morning. The breeze felt good and I ran into the usual people I run into in the morning. Got offered a cigarette by this slightly skanky, but overall very nice girl I met at James’s party and got to Individualized Fitness. Talked to some Korean fob and chatted about the Korean foods we wanted to eat (lol) and took a nap until noon. Showered, studied and crushed my exam and this retarded message just annoyed me. This calls for the only solution I know. Get with ma crew, and smoke until I don’t give a fuck!

Peaceeeee!

Ugh, all my teams and fantasy football teams lost. Baltimore Ravens lost to the Cincinnati Bengals with Joe Flacco throwing 4 interceptions. And the Patriots just sucking in the second half. Hate losing :(

MY WEEKEND HAS STARTED!

I’m too tired to even be happy about it but it’s time to head over to Jason’s party. Hopefully it’ll be good.

You would swear we planted trees the way the money’s grown..

we been busy like some bees, no honey comb..

nd you could probably feel the breeze when the money’s blown…

Pardon my towel n flip flop phase..

but I’ll never be the reason why a bitch got paid..

even when im not functioning in tip top shape..

I can still bench much as hip hop weighs

I feel like I’ve got so much on my mind but I don’t have the time to process it. I’m so backed up on schoolwork because I went home this weekend and I was driving between Towson, home, and Virginia all weekend. Stuff on my mind, things I want to say, just some thoughts I want to get out there and might as well do it before I get to work on some assignments for school.

To all the people I follow on Tumblr and to the people who follow mine, I feel like I got to know everyone just by looking at the material, rants, posts, pictures, videos and stuff they post. Some people, I can relate to really well and others introduce a new perspective on things. Hopefully no one takes offense to any of my opinions. Well, actually, I probably won’t care but just don’t cry and whine.

I was flipping through the TV and landed on this show. After looking it up on google, it was about some high school in Wisconsin on MTV and it was about different cliques and groups of kids getting together and breaking down their differences and all that sappy shit but I did like one kid’s story. He was getting treated like shit because he was gay and it’s something that bothers me. I used to call people gay and fags so easily but now, it’s getting harder to use those words at all. Not being allowed to get married, the public’s opinions toward homosexuality, and the fact that people can’t get over anyone different from themselves.

I used to think about what to use Tumblr for. Some people use it as a gallery of pictures that they like, updates on shit going on in life, spreading the gospel, giving their standpoint on certain issues, and I think I’m more comfortable with long, more personal entries. I think I’m one of the few that writes about the things I have on my mind. Plus my pictures of my favorite athletes, rappers, and random pictures I really like.

I think it’s time to finally quit smoking weed and railing prescription drugs. This weekend was like a flashback of last year when my best friend came down from Temple University. My nose started bleeding profusely after 4 hits and I started having really bad chest pains after smoking non stop Saturday night and Sunday morning-afternoon. Only bright note of this weekend was going home and seeing everyone. We lost our softball tournament pretty badly. 0-3 but it was expected, everyone was talking about how badly we were gonna lose. I hate that kind of attitude but what can I do about other people’s attitudes. Me and Mike went 12-1 on the BP table and 8-0 in flip cup. I cheat like a mother in flip cup but no one notices haha :)
But I think it’s time to legit, quit everything. The chest pains, the backing up of schoolwork, and the “fuck-it” attitude towards schoolwork is going to screw me over in the end. I’ve got to grow up and out of this bad habit.

The personally heartbreaking part of it was on Friday night, I had a talk with some people from Lighthouse and they all told me to grow spiritually and how I should work with kids at NKUMC. Personally, I love all the kids but I feel too dirty and sinful to be around young kids. I feel like the gap between where I should be, and where I currently am is too far and I’m not doing anything to shorten that gap. I sometimes resent that being a Christian is a hard life but hopefully it’s worth it in the end.

My really good friend Rocio from Argentina and I, have so many conversations and they all gravitate to one thing. We talk about relationships all the time and maybe because so many weddings are taking place, I feel lonely in a way. I feel like it’s going to take me forever to find a girl that’s good for me. Just someone sweet, won’t get mad because I get hungry every hour, won’t judge me for getting/having a tattoo, hopefully she’s a Christian, she doesn’t mind watching sports with me, will takes walks with me, listen to at least some of the same music with me, share secrets with, take trips to the beach with, have an amazing personality, won’t laugh at my fear of bugs and will catch any bug for me, won’t care how superstitious I am. Someone who won’t lie, can be honest with me, will watch Glee with me. I used to think it was embarrasing I watched Glee but a lot of people watch it lol o_o.
But anyways, this took too long to write and I’ve got to do homework. Bye for now, maybe I’ll write more tomorrow. 

Ugh, I smoked a bit and my chest hurts so bad.

Some random thoughts…

My mom packed me some dduk from home and I never had Korean food while I was stoned and it tastes so good. It’s just melting in my mouth. Nom nom.

I’m starting to procrastinate. It sucks because I have some quizzes and papers/projects due. It just means I have to start catching up tomorrow and maybe clean the room a bit and do everything in one day :(

Since the people that I follow/follow me are pretty cool, I’ll just say the things that I’ve thought about these last few days.

I’ve always wondered why in Korean dramas, when a person gets heartbroken, they decide to take a “vacation” from their life. I guess it’s a Korean thing because we don’t take a “vacation” to America or Paris all the time if we’re hurt or heartbroken. But I guess it’s necessary because I feel like Koreans are so emotional about romance and love. The guys get drunk about it, the girl cries about, the rich parents get sketchy and scheming. But at the same  time, I guess it’s a good thing at the same time. I guess it’s a wonderful thing to be in. It reminds me of old Korean music when I was in like, junior high school. 1TYM, Drunken Tiger, Sappy Korean drama OSTs, all the over dramatic shit hahaha.

OHHH, freaking random as shit, i know but I’m so pissed when I found out Justin Bieber beat out Drake. That stupid punk. Drake was robbed.

Anyways, my chest is hurting and I’m so beasted, I might just sleep soon. AFTER, the gatorade and saltine crackers ;)

I also want some Vans, they look clean. Specifically the Barcos something. Zapatos Del Barcos? Something like that, I can’t say for sure right now.

And I won my first game in fantasy football tonight! Adrian Foster, beasttt. 231 rushing, 3TDs.

Favorite actresses at the moment

1. Rashida Jones

2. Zooey Deschanel

3. Reese Witherspoon

Pwahaha. Anyways, I’m off to bed.

I’m so tired but I’m so excited that it’s the weekend for me. Just have to wake up early for some individualized fitness and cardio for Saturday and then I’m packing my bags and going home for the weekend. Hopefully I’ll get some rest for the upcoming week, there’s a lot of papers and exams beginning to be assigned so I’ve gotta get ready.

2:16 A.M

I find myself randomly looking back at high school memories. Maybe it’s because everyone’s checking up on the freshmen that just left for college. Asking how their dorms are, how they’re adjusting, if the classes are tough, etc etc and it makes me miss being in high school.

I miss having physics class at Bronx with Jenny Oh. She’d take notes while I’d nap one week. I’d take a nap with her instead of taking notes and she’d get mad. We ended up having to get notes from Artem, the white guy across the table from us.

I miss getting lunch at the diner in Bedford Park, Bronx with Ezekiel and Jin. I was the slowest eater and the other guys had such a huge appetite, they’d crush my fries before I finished my burger.

I miss English with Soho and Kazi. Talking about sneakers, girls, and the funniest shit. All the times we’d play in Manhattan, blaze in handball courts, and chill at Flushing.

I miss taking naps across the street from school on people’s car after a lunch at Kenny’s truck. The smell of cigarettes, grilled burgers, and the smell of fresh water from the resevoir.

I even miss going to summer school with Karl Lee and Joe Choi. We’d take the same bus to the Bronx all napping the way there. Taking 30 minute bathroom breaks and chilling in the stairways. Taking the bus back to Karl’s roof to blaze and chow down on Karl’s cooking.

I miss Spanish class with Susanna. We’d talk all the time and you’d whisper me answers and I get better grades then I should have, and you probably got worse grades…Sorry :x It was fun having English with you too, you’d fuck me up but still… Miss you shekki. Iron fist my ass

I miss skipping Spanish class with Jenny Oh in freshmen year. It started off “just today” and soon it became “one more day and we’ll never skip again” to “fuck it, let’s play. screw class.”

I miss chilling with my guys, whatever it was. Playing ball after school, smoking behind the handball courts, hanging out in Flushing at Koryodang until it was time to sleep. That one time, we all thought about running away.. we skipped school. Went to the pizzeria, snuck on the subway into Flushing, and spent the day at PC bang and our church’s kitchen cooking ramen.

Ugh, it’s late. Maybe I’ll write more tomorrow. Got to wake up early and do some homework. YURI CHOI, YOU OWE ME A LETTER.