I’m finding myself in such a melancholic mood with no apparent reason. There are days like today where the weather is crisp, cool, and the sun shines so brilliantly on the autumn leaves but every fiber of my being feels like crap. I feel dreary knowing the same exact stuff is going to happen and I feel even worse knowing all the possible things I COULD be doing but I’m not. I love being at school. Taking classes, meeting people, even studying and learning new things are fun but being stuck on the same campus, going to the same buildings, doing things with the same people, eating the same foods; it’s all starting to feel almost like a mental prison. As if I have the choice to do whatever I want, but at the same time, I can’t. Part of me just wants to escape this winter and go travel somewhere I’ve never been to before. Another part of me wants to pull on some running shoes and just run somewhere far, miles and miles away. Everything is going relatively well. My midterms are over, my school semester issues are worked out, I have money, I’m healthy, rugby is fun, my friends, teammates, and family all love me, but I feel myself slip into a state of unhappiness and I’m not sure what I have to do to get out of it. What am I doing God, what are your plans for me?
this is far too mesmerizing not to reblog